On 1st January 2010, well as you can see that it was a Happy New Year day. I thought it was have any difference but still same...same life, same work, same weather and nothing special. Only the age will make a bit different. Haha...
Ok...so, my grandma finally left us and we were so missed her so much. This kinda thing always come. When she's still alive, you will have to say "No...we're busy. Maybe later we will come." But when she's passed away, you will feel so regret not for seeing her much and promise this and that. Well...I have been through this for all the time.But that's kinda strange...Once when grandma was alive, the "Quan Yin" statue looks not so happy. I thought that it was something to do about the bulb was not quite write so my auntie change a new bulb for it. But the expression was still the same so we just ignore it. And when my grandma passed away, it seems got happy face. For my opinion, I think my auntie was right. The "Quan Yin" expression got a meaning. When it feel sad, it worry my grandma cause she have sick an nothing can be cured or family problem. And when it happy, my grandma finally release from the pain of sick or she can rest in peace. So "Quan Yin" relief that she's finally can rest. And plus, when my grandma passed away and we waiting for her sprit come back, my head keep spinning, headache, coughing, feel hot inside my body. I thought that I was having a fever. But for me I'm sure that I wasn't. That experience I feel it before in my hometown when some evil spirit or unwelcoming spirits nearby, I will get this feeling.
So...I just keep my mouth shut and went to room for a rest. They say we have to keep all the light shut it off and sleep. If got any noise outside or what-so-ever, ignore it. So we promise and sleep but I can't sleep any better. The place was quite small plus my head was going worst. More painful but I got another feeling was approaching. I also have no idea why I feel so sad. My heart so sour and want to cry it out. But I have to control my emotion. And I have to sms to my sister there something wrong with me. My sister told me that she heard some little noise at outside. So I have to concentrate the noise what she mention about. Yupe. She's right. I heard it too! Although my head still pain, I was clearly heard it some footstep at outside in that time she's always watering some plants. I hear one light noise from the cup she's usually like to drink Milo "Tang!" and finally is it my imagination...I think not. I heard some whispering but not so clearly what she's try to say. But not whispering me. It's from other room. Then again, the noise were dissappeared and so do I, I have to go back to sleep cause my head was going to burst any minute.
And tomorrow morning at 5.30am, we all rushed out to see if any food got any different. It looks like still same. Maybe grandma coming back only look for us. But I already feel as usual that my head was completely ok. But I don't want to tell about it. Scare they will say I'm over-reacted or something. And what I experienced about, they feel it too. But the most quite experience is my fifth auntie's son. He have seen her. He saw her without hand, leg and face for first time. Then slowly, he saw her mouth was talking to him. But didn't know what she's trying to tell him. No wonder why I heard someone whispering about it. It was grandma. I wish I can see her but it's no use. My eye's have been sealed but it's ok. As long as I can feel them it's fine with me.
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